What About Love

What if i took my time to love you
What if i put no-one above you
what if i did the things that really mattered
What if i ran through hopes of disaster

No-one would care if we had neva made it
We're in this alone so why dont we face it
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other

Chorus
What about love...
What about feeling...
What about all the things that make life worth living
What about faith
What about trust
And tell me baby what about us

How can I give this love a new beginning
How can I stop the rain its neva ending
How do i keep my soul reliving
Memories of how we should be keep calling

Chorus

Oh baby
Il take the rivers right
Il take the happy times
Il take the moments of disaster

The Talk

We had this TALK two weeks ago...about not seeing each other anymore since "he's already cleaning up his act". I don't know if he's cleaning up his act for #1, or if it's for a new #2.

In any case, IT'S OVER. This time, it's for real. It's something that should have happened a year ago, but somehow, everytime we (or he) try to end things, when we get together, we tend to forget about the things we talked about. After 8 months in this so called "relationship", we were suppose to forget we had something between us back then, but it never happened, until it lasted for 2 years.

Knowing that we will never really treat each other as friends, we agreed that the only way we can stop this is by not seeing each other for a while. "For a while" as defined, is a LONG time. I'm having a hard time forgetting him because of all the good memories. I can't deny the fact that in those years that I've spent with him, I was happy, and I have forgotten what it feels like to be lonely...until now.

I want to write more about how it has been for me without him for 2 weeks now (and counting), but I guess I've just grown really tired thinking about how hurt and devastated I am...

And so, I shall move on. What makes it harder is that only half of me wants to do this. But he's right...No matter how hard we try, we can never pretend that there's nothing between us. I will always be special to him (or so he says), and he will always be my sweet...It makes things a bit easier to accept when I know that at least he acknowledged that I wasn't just a friend in his life after all we've been through.

10 Years After

Ten years ago, it was 1996. Take this survey and see how many things have changed since then:

1) How old were you?
THEN: 17
NOW: 27

2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: St. Scholastica's College, Manila
NOW: Done with schooling!

3) Where did you work?
THEN: -
NOW: Team Manager, Convergys Philippines

4) Where did you live?
THEN: Cityland Townhouses, Pasig City
NOW: Merville Subdivision, Paranaque City

5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: Long hair
NOW: Still long haired!

6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: No
NOW: No

7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: No
NOW: No

8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: No
NOW: Yes

9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: Karen
NOW: Karen

10) Which of your pets were still alive?
THEN: Nicole
NOW: Nicole! Surprisingly, she's still alive til nowÜ

11) Who was your boyfriend?
THEN: none
NOW: It's complicated!!!

12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: I forgot...=(
NOW: character Duke in "She's the Man"; "Angel" of X-Men III

13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: someone who was 10 years older than me...Ü
NOW: No crush...Love meron!

14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: 5
NOW: 2

15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: none
NOW: none

16) What was your favorite band/singer?
THEN: no one in particular
NOW: no one in particular

17) What was your favorite movie?
THEN: many to mention!
NOW: Any...It's the company I'm after.Ü

18) What was your favorite song?
THEN: many to mention!
NOW: many to mention!

19) What was your favorite TV Show?
THEN: many to mention!
NOW: I don't watch TV anymore!!!

20) Had you smoked cigarettes?
THEN: Yes
NOW: Yes

21) Had you gotten drunk?
THEN: Yes
NOW: Yes

22) Had you DRIVEN?
THEN: No
NOW: No

23) If so which car?
THEN: N/A
NOW: N/A

24) Looking back, are you where you thought you would be in 2006?
Not really....Coz I wanted to be an interior designer, now I'm working for a callcenter. I imagined being married with 2 kids by 27, but now I'm mending a broken heart...

25) What you looked like?
1996 - Probably the same...Although I'm in light brown hair now compared to long black.