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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	REi
Birthday:	02-22
Birthplace:	philippines
Current Location:	office - makati city
Eye Color:	dark brown
Hair Color:	used to be jet black...now it's "burnt sienna" or something
Height:	5 ft lang!!!
Right Handed or Left Handed:	leftie
Your Heritage:	filipino
The Shoes You Wore Today:	bronze slip-ons
Your Weakness:	falling too fast too soon
Your Fears:	insects, snakes, sharks, ghosts
Your Perfect Pizza:	i'm not fond of pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	"religiously" pay for my lot
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"in a meeting...brb"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"i don't feel like working!!!"
Your Best Physical Feature:	my hair?
Your Bedtime:	1pm
Your Most Missed Memory:	being with him...
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDo
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	they taste the same to me
Do you Smoke:	yes
Do you Swear:	yup
Do you Sing:	no
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	i fall in love easily
Do you want to go to College:	been there, done that
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	yes
Are you a Health Freak:	no
&..39;Do you get along with your Parents:'	yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	no
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	i smoke daily
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	that would be almost every day...
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope...i think it was 3 months ago...ahehe
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yeah...
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	quick and painless
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	umm...i'm grown up so i should be wanting where i am right now
What country would you most like to Visit:	france
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	brown
Favourite Hair Color:	dark brown to black
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	as long as he's taller than me
Weight:	someone not classified as chubby or fat
Best Clothing Style:	clean, smart, decent look
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	i lost track
Number of Piercings:	5
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	i don't want to regret anything, so i'll just charge them to experiece
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3 Men and a Lady...Ü

As the old saying goes, "when it rains, it pours...."

Siguro nga, totoo na pag hindi mo sila pinansin, sila ang magpapapansin. Siguro nga, chaka lang nila marerealize how I was once important in their lives pag hindi na ko nagparamdam.

Tatlo sila. Bigla na lang akong pinapansin. And, it would be hypocritical to say that I don't enjoy the attention.Ü

#1 - "Just a thought...I never realized how much I missed you until I saw you. I'm looking forward to seeing you again, not for business."

#2 - "I'm looking forward to seeing you again...I really hope there is a next time. You make my time off duty worthwhile."

#3 - "Game?"

Hearing different things from different people made me realize that I do act differently with these different men. With #1, I'm the hopeless-romantic-tanga-type. All out ako sa kanya eh. With #2, I'm the hard-to-get-type of girl. He has to consistently be there whenever he can (which is not all the time since he's a doctor), or at least reassure me that he wants to be with me when he wants to. And, surprisingly, I can say no or make up reasons to give him the idea that I'm a very busy woman with a lot of options as to who to go out with. With #3, I'm the bitch who just cares about physical gratification.

The major realization of all is, I need them too. I am needy. And I have not met the man who has all 3 personalities. And without them, without all the complications, I feel empty.

White Flag

Probably the best song to express what I'm going through right now...

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of It's over
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All I was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be...

Haay...Di na natapos...=<

Thoughts...and More Thoughts.

I want to write about you just because I feel like it. Maybe this is the closest I can get to being honest with you...

We didn't really meet the ordinary way, although as I remember the people I've met, the way we did is becoming...common.

The first time I saw you and we had dinner, I have to be honest, I sort of "profiled" you, and I know you did the same. We probably weren't expecting anything from each other, or maybe we just want to believe that we aren't. Everyone has expectations...no matter how little.

You're single, educated, smart, financially stable with a decent job. But, physically, you weren't my type. But of course, this didn't stop us from having a nice conversation over dinner.

I guess in some ways, that dinner made quite an impression, and I agreed to go out with you again after 2 weeks. We talked about everything there is to talk about. I noticed that there are some things I can tell you that I can't tell other people. You became a confidant, an ear to listen. You can even finish my sentences before I can think of the next word to say.

I was honest with you about how I felt, and this I guess, was the biggest mistake I did.

You started misinterpreting things, and I don't like that. You started telling me that you're beginning to see me differently...and you started asking me where all these may lead.

I didn't want to answer your question not because I didn't know the answer yet, but because I already know how I felt. I don't feel the same. I am enjoying your company and our conversations, but that's all there is to it.

Why? I can think of a million reasons why I should not be in a relationship right now. You might even conclude that it's because I'm still haunted by my not so distant past with someone. In some ways, that is true. I still end up wishing that it was him I'm having good conversations and dinners with some times...and I'm being unfair. Regardless of how many reasons I try to list down here, it all just boils down to one thing.....

I just don't see you as the one. I'm sorry...