The Talk

We had this TALK two weeks ago...about not seeing each other anymore since "he's already cleaning up his act". I don't know if he's cleaning up his act for #1, or if it's for a new #2.

In any case, IT'S OVER. This time, it's for real. It's something that should have happened a year ago, but somehow, everytime we (or he) try to end things, when we get together, we tend to forget about the things we talked about. After 8 months in this so called "relationship", we were suppose to forget we had something between us back then, but it never happened, until it lasted for 2 years.

Knowing that we will never really treat each other as friends, we agreed that the only way we can stop this is by not seeing each other for a while. "For a while" as defined, is a LONG time. I'm having a hard time forgetting him because of all the good memories. I can't deny the fact that in those years that I've spent with him, I was happy, and I have forgotten what it feels like to be lonely...until now.

I want to write more about how it has been for me without him for 2 weeks now (and counting), but I guess I've just grown really tired thinking about how hurt and devastated I am...

And so, I shall move on. What makes it harder is that only half of me wants to do this. But he's right...No matter how hard we try, we can never pretend that there's nothing between us. I will always be special to him (or so he says), and he will always be my sweet...It makes things a bit easier to accept when I know that at least he acknowledged that I wasn't just a friend in his life after all we've been through.