CONFESSIONS...

Who do you tell when you love someone
Hoping that someone's in love with you
Who do you tell when you love someone
I think I might as well tell you

A friend of mine placed an entry on her blog about the confessions she made regarding her feelings for a dear friend...Little did I know that in a few days, I would be encountering the same scenario...

It isn't entirely the same though...

We had a petty fight over an issue that shouldn't be one: I was still seeing my ex-boyfriend. It can be an issue, if the guy wasn't married. My point is, nothing beyond friendship is bound to happen because of the reason I just stated. We probably just miss each other's company that's why we are seeing each other almost every other day.

That being the current situation, it came to me as a shock that he suddenly does not appreciate the fact that I spend time with my ex. "Fine...Be with him...You deserve someone better than me..." Hindi ka ba mashoshock pag bigla kang tinext ng ganito?? I had this feeling that he was ditching me that night...that he wanted to end it all...whatever it is that we had...Honestly, nataranta ako. It's as if my world stopped for a moment to let the rush of emotions hit me. Narealize ko, this honey-of-mine pala ngayon, has really become more than a current flame to me...Nalungkot ako imagining how life would be without him.

And so...I ended up doing what my good friend did: I confessed. Yes. I told him how I felt about what we have, that I value it, and that I'm not ready to see him go (and I don't think I'll ever be ready).

Unlike what happened to my good friend though, my sweetie replied. It was a reply that meant he understood me, and was even the one who said that nothing should change between us. At least, something good came out of the petty fight.

However, if only I have the chance to take it all back, I think I'd grab that opportunity. My feelings are an open-book to my closest friends, but I was hoping I could keep this from him...especially kung wala namang patutunguhan yung pag-confess ko. Nothing changed nga naman: he still does not feel the same. He probably feels something, but not the same way as I do...

Now, there's no turning back. Nasabi ko na ang mga dapat tinatago ko na lang sa sarili ko dahil sa takot na mawala siya.

I never learn...Tsk. Tsk.